Sarkastickunt

When I first meet someone I want to love them and make them mine. I want to make them My best friend, my husband, my love, my mentor. I have all this faith in them that they have no idea even exists. I just want to be loved so badly that I jump right past introductions and straight into commitment and forming this eternal connection.

I want them to see me, the me I hide from everyone. The me I am ashamed of. I want them to save me and fix me and make me better. I want them to be in awe of me and fall to their knees and fawn all over me.

I have this need. This desire…this hole that is endless and bottomless and all I want is for them to fucking think I am amazing. I want to be the sexiest woman they have ever seen. I want them to want me even though it’s wrong. Even though they are taken or too young, or too old. I just want to be wanted. 

Do you hear what I am saying Mr. Starbuck’s Barista??